Hello! I get it already, I felt it already. I know you're looking for me. I'm not going to hide anymore. I'm looking for you too. I've got so much to say to you. Please wait for me. Please. I got truckloads of things to say to you, really.
It's odd how I'm afraid of being alone now. Very afraid. Why should I be right? Why do I need anyone else to understand me when I already do so myself. Perhaps its cos I know everything so well. Every weakness, every insecurities. It makes me feel vulnerable like this. Very vulnerable.
I just need to keep looking. And looking and looking and looking. I know you are doing the same. How can you ever find me if I keep hiding right?
"Faith is taking that first step when you cannot see the entire staircase."
I know. I need to take that first step. Right now right now right now.
and there she goes chasing her fairytales, 02:27
i not going to believe you anymore
and there she goes chasing her fairytales, 23:24
I think I should just go kill myself
I think I should just go and die.
and there she goes chasing her fairytales, 23:22
Facebook's a bitch.
I just feel like not talking and staring blankly the whole night.
and there she goes chasing her fairytales, 23:12
Hello little space of mine. It's been a long long time. I don't know, suddenly feel the urge to spill out random thoughts to a screen again. Maybe cos my little book of thoughts is abit far away and I'm too lazy to pull it out.
And you're going. Now, now, what is it this time round?
Idk.
It's just that every time I see or read or hear certain stuffs, I just lose every strength to continue. It hits me so so bad every single time. Every little step seems so so so so far away. And I know what I should do. I know what I need to do.
Perhaps thats the way to do it. Keep reading those stuffs, keep telling myself those stuffs. And I'll learn to stop taking another step forward.
Haven't you learnt?
So let's just go with the plan.
and there she goes chasing her fairytales, 02:49
and there she goes chasing her fairytales, 04:30
I wanted to take back what I said and say I'm still a believer.
But. I guess it's harder getting those words out now.
How?
and there she goes chasing her fairytales, 00:45