Like how a friend of mine asked.
Fate or Coincidence?
Well. I'd like to call it Coincidence.
Cos no one knows if its Fate yet :]
and there she goes chasing her fairytales, 02:05
Girls would want to date Men.
Boys would never want to date Women.
HMMMMMMMM :D
and there she goes chasing her fairytales, 01:58
AAAAAAAAHHHHHH I SO WNA TEAR MY HAIR OUT NOW.
VIVIAN IS SO PISSED OFF AT HERSELF. AH MAO I DID THAT FOR YOU OKAY :(
I REGRET ALR. HURRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR.
HAPPY CNY BTW.
and there she goes chasing her fairytales, 00:39
HAHA.
Vivian's not blogging cos almost everything that has happened in the past few days are all on FACEBOOK. Ah, the power of online networking! Like how we always say, a picture speaks a thousand words, so there's no reason to blog HAHA.
Anyway, being back in st nicks rocks la. ST NICKS GIRLS ARE ALWAYS SO LOVED BY THE TEACHERS. Its been so freaking long since I heard people addressng the audience by 姐妹们! And! Everyone got ICE CREAM as part of cny celebration! Which other school gets that kinda treatment. Ladies, let's go back another day! For two servings of DAH LEGENDARY ORANGE BOWL AGAIN. And I have a new mission to accomplish! :D
Life's getting Zzzz again. There's perpetually nothing constructive to do but nuah at home. I'm going to start taking up classes!!!!! Wake my brain up a little. AHHHH. I can't wait for the feb camps to start.
I need to get busy. Real busy. And occupied. It'll keep my difting thoughts at bay. I need to stop asking myself rhetorical questions. I need to stop second thinking cos it really gets tiring. Just let things be.
and there she goes chasing her fairytales, 01:45
AH I miss going to cck campsite. There's just something about that place that I like :] Well, it's the place where I experienced so many 'firsts'.
It's the first time I saw so many stars in the singapore night sky.
First time I felt so close to the sky.
First time I felt so part of nature.
First time I felt so many emotions running through me in the mere 11 days.
First time I felt that I went through the
most fulfilling 11 days of my life.
First time meeting so many different people that opens up my narrow world.
First time I felt closer to people I know for 3 days compared to those I knew for years.
First time I felt so much goosebumps that inspires me everyday.
This will just be a beginning and there's so much further to go. It's been a wild ride. One that leaves me craving for more. I just feel that I'm doing so much, I can do so much more.
Each and every one of them have so much stories to tell, it's just overwhelming when you see how inadequate you are. Stories that you leave you going OMG. Yet some of them have so much strength inside that leaves you wondering about yourself. Like what Ding said, many of the things I tell my kids, most of them are what I never dared to tell myself. Seeing so many of them living their lives and helping them with it, it left me wondering about what I'm doing with mine. Whatever I told them, I'm telling the same to myself too. I keep telling them to Have Faith. And deep inside, my own faith strengthens.
I'm not there just to make a difference to them, they made a difference to mine.It feels like self actualisation. I'm learning so much and its overwhelming. RIDZ! I'm not wasting time! I'm doing things I believe in. I'm doing things I find worth in. I'm loving it :]
Now I know why you love this job and what kept you going on for so long :]
and there she goes chasing her fairytales, 23:51
VIVIAN JUST WENT THROUGH THE MOST FULFILLING 11 DAYS OF HER LIFE.
FREAKING TIRED.
TANNED.BUT
WORTH IT ALL AND I'M LOVING IT.
and there she goes chasing her fairytales, 22:13
I often wonder what do you get when you add two extremes together. Like with emotions. Say, well the basics.
Happy and sad. What exactly happens when you feel truly happy and truly sad at the same time?
Nope, not that sappy forcing yourself to smile kinda thingy. But you honestly feel both emotions at the same time.
Its like you're very very very happy. Yet there's so much saddness in you that makes it hard to smile. At the same time, you're very very very sad. Yet there's so much happiness that makes it hard to vent things out.
I guess it'll be very painful.
Cos you can't even smile the happiness out or cry all that saddness out. Its like everything would be trapped inside you going round and round and round until it all become a blur mix. Until you can't even feel what you're feeling. It's neither good or bad. It's just feels like a blank that needs to be filled in.
P.S:
Eh, that sounds just like 2009 by the way. Another journey, another blank awaiting to be filled in. Nevertheless, hello 2009.
and there she goes chasing her fairytales, 03:35
