I'm suddenly very afraid.
Cos you're so close to finding out.
I really don't want to know what happens if you ever do.
I should shut up about certain things.
SIGH.
It's the only thing that I hide from you for now.
OH GOSH.

I don't think I can be like Miss Kat or C.
I don't have that much courage.
I'm only brave enough to hide in the shadows a distance away.
That's why I admire them actually.

At times I really feel the urge to spill everything.
Yet I know I'll need to risk everything that there is.
Awhile ago I wanted to let it end on an ugly note and just walk away.
Yet as soon as that thought crosses me, you'll come around the heart and pull me back again.
With that, how can I ever ever ever turn back and leave?
How can be selfish and risk all that you've done and all that I've fought for?

I know I have to keep it all in.
Keep it all down.
And it will all be great and awesome again.

说了一个谎，就要说更多谎来圆上一个谎...