All That Glitters Isn't Gold.

Tuesday, June 30, 2009

Spot the difference!

I see it now.
You're just out of this world.

and there she goes chasing her fairytales, 02:11

READY?
SET?
LET'S GO :D

I'm stressed.
But I'll be fine :D
I'll be great :D
And get well soon :D

and there she goes chasing her fairytales, 01:39

Monday, June 29, 2009

Of Dreams :]

I just realised not long ago that I've already realised one of the dreams I've pen down since long long ago.
Looking back, I wouldn't have thought that it'll really come true.
At least not so quickly.
I wrote that dream down in sec 4 and thought it'll be realised in my late 20's.
OH WELLS :D

Now its about a dream that's expiring in a week's time.
Hahahahhahhahahhahhaaa.
I'm still holding on to the idea that this wild dream might still come true :D

and there she goes chasing her fairytales, 12:46

Thursday, June 25, 2009

MISTAKEN IDENTITY AND THE DEEP BLUE SEA.

Mistaken.
Twice today.
Hmm what an irony!
I don't know to feel thrilled or upset.
Maybe its like Ecstatic for a few seconds but after the reality of it sets in it just gets BLAH.
Yeah BLAH's the word to describe.
Cos I just can't find another word good enough to describe it.

Okay but still.
Happy.
Let's just remember all that adrenaline rush first :]
At least I caught sight of the oasis! :]
Or Deep Blue Sea, as I would like to call it instead.

View's Awesome :]
Breathtaking.
Spectacular.
Amazing :]

It's so vast and great you can never embrace all of it at once.
Sometimes you want to go closer.
Reach out for something you hold dear.
Sometimes you find staring it from afar.
Like how you'll lean back and admire a distant star.
Then slowly taking in and embracing all its its beauty.

Makes you want to make it yours.

Have you caught a bottle of sea before?
It loses all its blue and green.
Where nothing's left to be seen.
Like any glass of plain water.
Like tears of afters.
Nothing more than an empty bottle.
Or bottle of emptiness.

Why is the sea blue?
They like to ask.
The sea is only as blue as its sky gets.
A bottle of sea is only as colourful as the underside of its bottlecap.
Just like how bob needs jello.
HAHAHA. Okay.
Just like how broadway needs her stage to shine.
Just like how music needs its lyrics to make you cry.
Just ike how stars need their night to shimmer.
Just like how pop princess needs her glimmer.

The sea needs its sky.

And you can't give it the sky it needs.

My piece of sky's not huge enough for that deep blue sea.

and there she goes chasing her fairytales, 22:19

Wednesday, June 24, 2009

TODAY IS WEDNESDAY AND TOMORROW'S THURSDAY.
HAHAHAHAHA WHEEE.
YAYNESS.
TOTALLY RANDOM.
Well.

Oh ya, Ernica's coming home tomorrow too!! :]
I suddenly realised alot of people are flying here and there these few days.
Like Amy!

and there she goes chasing her fairytales, 20:08

IT'S TUESDAY!

YAY ONE MORE DAY DOWN!!!
WHEE!

Shucks.
Note the frequency of blog posts this week.
I'm like waking up every morning and asking WHAT DAY IS IT!
IS IT TODAY?
TODAY!?!?!

This is so horribly wrong.
BUT who cares.

OH AND ITS ACTUALLY OFFICIALLY WEDNESDAY FOR NOW :D
YAYYYYYYYYYYY!

Okay chill. I'll go read my book. How did you know anyway!

and there she goes chasing her fairytales, 00:15

Monday, June 22, 2009

Of Fireflies and The Light of Life.

Like what you've taught.
Some are just not worth the time :]

Everyday, we're caught up with all that shimmer and shine around us.
We start to spend everyday chasing and chasing and chasing those spots of blinding light.
All that while you're just fascinated with that light and keep reaching out to make it yours.
Most, I realised, fade away as quickly as they appear.
When they do, that sudden darkness overwhelms you and leaves you lost.
When one fades off, another would appear.
Sometimes many appear at the same time.
But at the end of the day, all fade away.
That's when you find yourself lost.
All over again.
And again.

Sometimes all it needs its just a step back from all that lights.
Then you realise those are just puny fireflies.
As puny as my nails now btw.
You also realised that those on and off flickering don't look as alluring as they seem anymore.
Gradually, you see this faint but steady stream of light that appears far far far away.

Sometimes we all need a step back.
To see things a little clearer.
So we know what's important and what's not.
Like what I told a little boy during camp.
1,3,5.
You tell yourself if it's important or not :]

Truth be told, that just might be another firefly.
That, we would know not.
But for now, it's not fading or flickering.
It does not leave you faltering.
And keeps you going forth.

Whenever my world starts to give a little sigh,
you'll always happen to pop by and say Hi :)

With all these,
how can I ever forget?

How am I ever to forget.

This is not a promise.
It's already a part of me.

and there she goes chasing her fairytales, 22:43

OH BTW.
I was kidding about letting it end.
That was just for a poetic end.
Purely for literary purpose haha.

and there she goes chasing her fairytales, 19:58

SICK.

Yeah, day 2 only and I fell sick.
Vivian CUI.
This is bad.

Met up with quite a few groups of people just recently.
Council.
Beloved 07S11!
It’s interesting seeing what Time has done to all of us.
Some of us took huge leaps forward since we last met.
Some flew, too far away, and never came back.
Some went into hiding and disappeared behind his own shadows.
Some jogged about. On a treadmill. And were like how we knew them.
Some came back with stories, of life, of love.
Some geared up for a huge change.
Some already took that brave step into the new chapter.
To those, hats off, I would say.
Abandoning all that you’ve had and leave for somewhere new is something I’ve always imagined doing.
It’s a dream for now, not a goal.
So I’m cool.

What’s the difference between Dreams and Goals anyway?
That’s for another day :]

Honestly, every story was admirable.
I wonder which category I belong to in their eyes.
Whichever.
I’m getting ready for chapter two!
It’s got you in it! :]
That’s how I want it to be :]

I can't be bothered to be a poet at work for now.
Cos Time's not on my side.
Emotions?
Let it run.
Let it out.
Let it flow.
Let it love :]
Then.
Let it end.

and there she goes chasing her fairytales, 00:37

Saturday, June 20, 2009

One Fine Day :]

It's Day One!
Not officially yet. And I'm already so bored. Not bored bored la.
Just have this constant weird feeling that something is missing.
LIKE SOMETHING IS LACKING.
ABSENT.
VACANT.
EMPTYYYYYYYYY.
If only you could take me along.
IT'S JUST DAMN WEIRD WALKING HOME NOW.
Feels damn weird walking home in the night and not sneaking out HAHAHAHA!
And no one comments on clothes anymore.
You know, I'm really scared to go back to life like this!
OH WELLS.
TIME TO LEARN TO BE INDEPENDENT OKAY :D
Hair extensions are so going to be out! :]
THERE, I SAID IT.
Love the way things are now.
I can just simply sms MISS YA whenever I want to.
It's a different meaning altogether!

AND YOU KNOW WHAT.
I'VE GOT A FEELING YOU DO KNOW ABOUT THIS SPACE.
JUST THAT YOU CHOOSE NOT TO KNOW.
WHATEVER IT IS... LET IT BE :D

P.S. I KNOW I MOOD SWING :D

and there she goes chasing her fairytales, 00:36

Friday, June 19, 2009

Are you having a cold?

Yes, and how on earth did you know?
Oh wells, you always know.
I stopped TRYING to cover up anything already.
Cos somehow or other, you always know.
Flu's getting bad I think.
BUT WHO CARES.
I'M LIKE :D :D :D NOW.

Sorry I was behaving like a spoilt brat.
Why think about things that upset you when there's so much more things that make you :]
Sorry I felt the way I felt.
I can't help it at times.
But I guess, let's just be contented with whatever we have :]
AND I AM :D :D :D
I AM LEARNING HOW TO :D
LIKE WHAT I ALWAYS SAY.
THANKS FOR EVERYTHING.
For that fourteen chunks of pineapple heehee.

and there she goes chasing her fairytales, 00:39

Thursday, June 18, 2009

I REALLY WANT TO TELL YOU.
COS I NEED THAT CLOSURE AS MUCH AS YOU DO.

THEN AGAIN.
Like I say, my answer will be different from yours.
Cos I'm that kind who...
Even if I can't find that oasis, I'll not stay for a well.

That's why I've always been so afraid that someone else will take your place while you're not around.
Then I realised.
It'll never happen.
Cos I never let that happen.
Not once.

You know what.
I should stop looping that song and go to bed.
Tomorrow will be an awesome day okay.
It needs to be.

Tag replies:
Girls: Yes it's bof :] And its not the same guy ah ru. LUCKILY. And, I'm fine. My self recovery skills can be quite great.

Matt: Heya that was really random of you but thanks :] 16june is emo emo emo. But I love it too :] Humans are sadistical in nature. We love things that upsets us don't we? Like cheesy love songs. Hahaha. Cheers!

and there she goes chasing her fairytales, 02:47

I really feel like spilling everything out.
Letting everything out.
Sharing everything.
Let it go.
Let it out.
Let you know.

I know I can't.
It'll just mess up everything that we've built up.
That I've built up.
LOGIC OVER THY HEART.

I just hope you'll never ask.
Never ask why I'm in love with that song.
Please.
Cos I won't have the heart to reply you.

and there she goes chasing her fairytales, 02:03

I hate having such conversations with you.
The situation's so freaking similiar.
Telling those things to you is like a reminder of what I should tell myself.
Freak.
Move on.
So what if she knows.
So what if YOU knew.
Life will be back to normal.
Things will be the same.
Logic over emotions.
Whatever's going to happen a few months from now will still happen.
And you know what. You just might be invited to witness.
SO WHY BOTHER TELLING HER?
Yes, why bother telling?
Reassuring you is like reassuring myself.
Of the fact that whatever that's going to happen, will happen.
And we're both freaking sure about that.

It's so weird you're showing me what I've already read two years ago.
Telling me things I've guessed.
Feeling the same way I feel.
Keeping track like how I do.
Our sources of inspirations.
Just that the protaganists of each stories are switched.
But how can I ever tell you that I already knew almost everything.
This is really one time I don't want to understand how you feel.

I suddenly fear this closeness that we share.
Really.
I just can't answer some of the questions that you ask.
What am I to say?

Yes.
I should be used to it all already.
I need to be.
I know what your answer is.
And I somehow know what's my answer too.

You know. It's going to be different from yours this time round.

and there she goes chasing her fairytales, 01:21

Tuesday, June 16, 2009

You said move on. Where do I go?

It’s only when you move away from the past, its then you can embrace what the future brings.

Somehow or other, I feel like I’m looking at a mirror.
I felt that you were saying that to me.
It’s so strange that we were doing the same things for the past few years.
Just that, you broke free.
Me?
Let’s just say that I’m still holding on to the past cos the future seems to hold what the past had brought along.
Okay, in short, I can’t.

Today’s awesome.
Amazing full day out :]
Though there’s constantly this reminder to self that haunts me every now and then.
I knew this is coming.
Yet I chose to take this route.
I never regretted a single bit since then.
It’s just that sometimes I can’t help but get caught up with the negative thoughts that run through and through.
Sigh.
It’s like a dream come true.
At the same time, this dream ended that night it started.

Comparisons are easily done
Once you've had a taste of perfection
Like an apple hanging from a tree
I picked the ripest one
I still got the seed

You said move on, where do I go
I guess second best is all I will know

Cause when I'm with him
I am thinking of you
Thinking of you
What you would do if
You were the one
Who was spending the night
Oh I wish that I
Was looking into your eyes

You're like an Indian summer
In the middle of winter
Like a hard candy
With a surprise center
How do I get better
Once I've had the best
You said there's
Tons of fish in the water
So the waters I will test

He kissed my lips
I taste your mouth
He pulled me in
I was disgusted with myself

Cause when I'm with him
I am thinking of you
Thinking of you
What you would do if
You were the one
Who was spending the night
Oh I wish that I
Was looking into...

You're the best
And yes I do regret
How I could let myself
Let you go
Now the lesson's learned
I touched it I was burned
Oh I think you should know

Cause when I'm with him
I am thinking of you
Thinking of you
What you would do if
You were the one
Who was spending the night
Oh I wish that I
Was looking into your eyes
Looking into your eyes
Looking into your eyes
Oh won't you walk through
And bust in the door
And take me away
Oh no more mistakes
Cause in your eyes I'd like to stay

and there she goes chasing her fairytales, 23:36

Monday, June 15, 2009

IAG JUNIOR 2!

YAY VIVIAN HAD AN AMAZING EXPERIENCE IN I AM GIFTED JUNIOR CAMP :]
AMAZING.

Now its back to the real world again.
Tomorrow's going to be another amazing day.
YAYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY!

and there she goes chasing her fairytales, 23:27

Thursday, June 11, 2009

I'm not Miss Kat.
I'M JUST NOT HER.
I don't want to be.
And I never want to be.
It's too saddening.
I cannot.
I'll die.
I'll lose my sense of direction.
And end up calling people behind mrt stations all the time.
BUT LUCKILY,
I'm VIVIAN.

So let's concentrate on our purpose why we're here.
OKAY WRONG.
Let's jut do what we need to do.
FOCUS.
FOCUS.

and there she goes chasing her fairytales, 00:31

Tuesday, June 9, 2009

Better?
Yes, definitely a lot better.

Yet, at the same time.
Sadder?
You guess? It's the worst already.

and there she goes chasing her fairytales, 02:18

Shit.
Vivian cui.
Vivian CUI.
VIVIAN REALLY CUI THIS TIME ROUND.
I KNEW IT WAS GOING TO HIT ME DAMN BAD.
I REALLY FEEL THE FEAR NOW.
I don't know what I would have done if you had clicked on the link. This link.

NEVERMIND.
It's over already.
For now.
Let's take a breather.

and there she goes chasing her fairytales, 01:20

Monday, June 8, 2009

BOF!

WHEE.
BOF IS LOVE.
I'm going to re-watch the Taiwan version after this.
Gosh.
I conclude that it's an endless addiction.
Like YOU!
Hahahahahaha.
I love it when people call me now. Cos I just changed my ringtone to my fave song.
HAHAHAHAHAH I FEEL LIKE I'M A TEENAGER.

:D :D :D :D :D :D

and there she goes chasing her fairytales, 01:49

Saturday, June 6, 2009

ENOUGH.
I SHAN'T SEE MORE.
I SHAN'T BE SO SADISTIC.
BYE.
I'M OFF TO BED.
EVERYTHING'S HYPOTHETICAL ANYWAY.
SIGH.

and there she goes chasing her fairytales, 01:45

Wednesday, June 3, 2009

STRESS.

I'm damn stressed.

"Don't worry, I'll be there."

That I believe.
BUT I'M STILL VERY STRESSED.
AND I DON'T KNOW WHY.

and there she goes chasing her fairytales, 22:33

Tuesday, June 2, 2009

BOYS OVER FLOWERS.

If I don't reply you on msn, smses, or start to drift away in conversations...
This is what I'm busy with nowadays.
I give you, Boys Over Flowers :]
Korea's version of my all time favourite Meteor Showers :D

And this is...
My Fave.
My Love.
HAHAHAHAHAHA.

Ahh. It's good to just stay in an imaginary world every now and then.
I finally feel like a little girl again.
Been trying to grow up too fast and it's a little tiring.
At least I know it's not real and it's imaginary.
Blatant truth.
Okay, I'm going back to my love. HAHAHA.

P.S. AH RU. Luckily our love's not the same guy. HAHA.

and there she goes chasing her fairytales, 01:16

Monday, June 1, 2009

Carrots, coffee beans or eggs?

I want to be a coffee bean.
But I'm a selective egg.
So we don't need to do things we don't wish to.
Not anymoreeeeeeee.

SAJC THIS THURS AND FRI. I CAN'T WAIT. I CAN'T WAIT.

:D :D :D

and there she goes chasing her fairytales, 23:54

When I'm with you
I'll make every second count
Cos I miss you
When ever you're not around
When I kiss you
I still get butterflies years from now
I'll make every second count
When I'm with you

(:

and there she goes chasing her fairytales, 01:53