AH I miss going to cck campsite. There's just something about that place that I like :] Well, it's the place where I experienced so many 'firsts'.

It's the first time I saw so many stars in the singapore night sky.
First time I felt so close to the sky.
First time I felt so part of nature.
First time I felt so many emotions running through me in the mere 11 days.
First time I felt that I went through the most fulfilling 11 days of my life.
First time meeting so many different people that opens up my narrow world.
First time I felt closer to people I know for 3 days compared to those I knew for years.
First time I felt so much goosebumps that inspires me everyday.

This will just be a beginning and there's so much further to go. It's been a wild ride. One that leaves me craving for more. I just feel that I'm doing so much, I can do so much more.

Each and every one of them have so much stories to tell, it's just overwhelming when you see how inadequate you are. Stories that you leave you going OMG. Yet some of them have so much strength inside that leaves you wondering about yourself. Like what Ding said, many of the things I tell my kids, most of them are what I never dared to tell myself. Seeing so many of them living their lives and helping them with it, it left me wondering about what I'm doing with mine. Whatever I told them, I'm telling the same to myself too. I keep telling them to Have Faith. And deep inside, my own faith strengthens. I'm not there just to make a difference to them, they made a difference to mine.

It feels like self actualisation. I'm learning so much and its overwhelming. RIDZ! I'm not wasting time! I'm doing things I believe in. I'm doing things I find worth in. I'm loving it :]


Now I know why you love this job and what kept you going on for so long :]